well, until i opened my eyes and saw my seat and the lecturer in front of me yapping, i thought of not and never closing them again. Here i was in a university, a place i considered to be for the bright people if not the brightest. judging by my history, i was never supposed to be in such a place i thought of my self in the down side up way, well it turned out i was wrong and that i only needed to open my eyes and be among the brightest children.
I applied for the university entrance and they did take a while before giving me back the response, never mind the extent at which i was fed up with anxiety. just like how it is happening in our country’s presidential elections, they give us half of the results and make us fill the gap about the rest of the information, which is not cool at all. To some point i thought i had not even qualified to even be at the cut off point of acceptance.
Then i couldn’t take it any longer, i went to the university to confirm my status, of course too much was going on in my head. I got to the institution and they made me wait for them just because they thought of extending their lunch break. Patience has always been my thing and obviously the end justifies the need. Being so, they finally arrived and found me waiting for them, they asked me to give them more time which i did.
finally i went to the uni, i day school and as i walk there everyday, i appreciate everything in it, including nature. I got there and am doing what i wanted. It takes a lot more effort but its worth the fight.
Truth is I had something special that i didn’t know, i thought i was this freak who didn’t know any thing but there was too much going on, that i never got the chance to reveal it earlier, i would have gone a lot more further but, a start isn’t that bad because its never too late, until its late, and now i am confident enough that i can do something and so can any one else. It is such moments of discovery that makes one a winner that they never thought they were.
i am living a dream that change gave me the chance to become someone to the society and i am happy :):)